mudgreen

2007-04-28T08:29:00.000-07:00

:D happy happy!
11 DAYS
JIAYOU HCCO(:

REMEMBER:
owe taxi money
owe hong money for pet money
owe yijing money for food

haha got blister on my toe so weird!
playing soccer barefooted very fun :D
yayy happy birthday zhiguang weiquian zhengyou and xiaohong!
thnkyou xiangjiao yellow for the wooden house! (:
porgy forever! :D

what a random post! hahaha
tooooddlessss! shal go back to my room!

2007-04-17T07:18:00.000-07:00

Artist/Band: Rascal Flatts
Lyrics for Song: What Hurts The Most
Album: Me & My Gang

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the mostIs being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do(Not seeing that loving you)
That’s what I was trying to do

i like this song(:
today was fun! hahah
we went to novena for free ice cream! :D with yangyan!
saw the whole bunch of pple walking towards us al with their ice cream cones
and that gave us the incentive to get there faster so we decided to run!
the queue was super long but lucky we dint have to wait that long
they got alot of manpower quite efficient :D
i ate chocolate fudge brownie flavour! wahhh got that xin fu de gan jue
then i randomly thought of what my friends shared with me and i thought im a lucky girl!
hehh yijing helped me get the ben and jerry red balloon!
very nice hahaha it says THE HAPPY PEOPLE CO.
super cute :D yayy and kahyim gave me the postcard too thnkyou!
hahah now i have 3 balloons at home
they make up the traffic light colours leh! red green and yellow!
haha ok random (:
after ice cream yangyan sherene and shengwei had to leave
so moses, nickoh, kahyim, shumin, yijing, chelsea, jinglin and i went to guangguang (:
went to the kids level hahhaa damn fun
kids these dayds damn lucky
nice clothes nice toys and parents are willing to splurge on their kids :S
to think i used to use marbles as my barbie dolls and lego as their car
hahah oh man damn deprived :S
thats why i love TOYS R US that much!
so after that, we also went to TOYS R US!
YAYYY (: had fun playing with all the spastic toys
nickoh yijing and i were meng pressing all the toys all at one go hehh
so it was super noisy cause all the poohs were blabbering at the same time!
damn funnny i couldn stop laughing haha!
hahha chelsea and jinglin said it was a waste of time :S
oh man i felt bad for making them wait while we play
hmmm but i sitll love TOYS R US :D \
made me forget all the nonsensical emotions and thoughts i had before that!
shall go changi airport one day with lover! we haven gone out for ages!
hahah shall go read my notes now :S
BYEBYEBYEBYBYEBYE

2007-04-11T07:11:00.000-07:00

hmm ive been very exhausted these few days
was totally zonked out today
could feel some eavy thingy in my brain caouldn concentrate during school
and i fell flat on the table sleeping while my econ tcher was going thru our econ paper
aye i shall catch some rest today and mug at 3 am tmr!
dint manage to go dinner with the rest today cause i had no money and i was really too tired to wana go eeat le sorry :S
so went home with hong and the ba wu er bang!
hahah very fun(: samuel was saying we shld start planning tanbo chalet wahhh alot of things to do!
homework mug test piah presents write letters! go mic go!
hehh super happy after co prac today(:
shouhao said he was impressed by me playing the daruan
hehh and we both agreed that gender does not matter
most importantly size doesnt matter too!
thankyou thnkyou it made my day :D
hmm hcco is getting better each prac and can tell everyones starting to get serious le!
yayy JIAYOU HCCO(:
our day will come for us to shine! (:

theres alot more other things to blog but im tired!
sleep> blogging! shall napp soon(:
hahaha time to go byebye blog! (:

now youre telling me that all youve been was just a lie
i need to stay sane

we're all telling the same story
living the same lies
just walking down our different lanes..

2007-04-06T09:43:00.000-07:00

the foursix outing was nice!
thankyou to all those who gave out really nice presents! :D
managed to catch up with some of them
we just sat there and talked and ate and played!
walking to mrt station from yishun to sembawang was really quite loser :S but it was good excercise hehhh
it has been a long day! :D shall get some rest!
upload pictures another day bah(:
HAKUNA MATATA(:

you know i'll be there ,
if you ever need me
i'll be praying for you.

2007-04-05T06:32:00.000-07:00

today's a really weird day
my friend ran away from home
i really wonder how shes doing now
i hope shes okay :S
the last thing i wana know is for something to happen to her, GRAH

misato left our class today ):
i like her alot shes a very cute girl
she made me feel so bad cause she gave me this pair of chopsticks!
very pretty(: we were teasig her about her guy
that she must show us her guy's picture! haha
shes very nice! :D ill miss her! like her smile and the times when we helped her fold her cranes(:
nvm we'll keep in contact! i hope(:

yijing and i ponned econ lecture

and we got caught by choe

i really needed the time to do my stuff

times really passes and im way behind everyone for everything

im gonna start studying after this post

ehhh wait must call feeb first!

yijing told me i shld give up sme commitments

BUT its so hard i love doing all the things i do

i hope illl be able to cope then nothinhg has to be given up!

jiayou MIC(:

dont know why

i just sat there

thought of what has been

and i cried and cried till those tears ran dry

cause what is left has gone away

if i could hear what u had to say..

2007-04-03T08:14:00.000-07:00

:D NYCO OWNS!
the juniors pulled through!
i was sooo glad for them(:
knowing how much theyve put in to get to where they are
i just felt super gan dong
its not about how you play but about feeling for what you play
nyco has proven the fact that what matters is music from the heart
my lover and i were crying for them when they were playing
its been such a long time since ive felt those emotions.
its such a nice feeling to bbe hearing good co music after so long(:
i was very conforted to know that my juniors are putting in their best on stage
and tahts why they managed to shine! :D
dont know why i hugged my juniors i couldn help but tear again :S
rahhhh how i wish i could feel those emotions like them
i really hope ill be able to feel that much for the next upcoming syf GRAH ):
i wanna go back to nyco ): rah but it doesnt matter where i go, my hearts always with nyco!
i dont know how to describe everything but im happy today anyway! hahah

i love NYCO and my green happy meal balloon! <3

grant me my lil wish

2007-04-01T08:22:00.001-07:00

i have one apple
and you have two
you give me one apple
and i have two!
i ate one apple and give one back to you
now i have no apples and you have TWO!

I LIKE THIS SONG(:

i'd do anything to see you smile(:

2007-04-01T08:22:00.000-07:00

2007-03-20T08:44:00.000-07:00

created by emotester
To create your own quiz, click here
You scored as Emo.

You are a fuckin emo. Get out of my sight you whining fag.
Emo
55%
Normal human being
35%

hahaha ok was bored! so random(:
anw why is everyone getting so upset!
even xiquan was saying theres so much sadness in this world!
cheer up everybody!
like sharon alway says, nothings worth a frown hahah!
SMILE YOUR LIFE THROUGH(:

i hope im getting stronger!
went to do inclined pull up today with yijing and clara(:
yayy i amazed myself again.
hahaha ok must sleep early, today was a long day
yeah take care everybody! :D

2007-03-17T09:08:00.000-07:00

if i could i would want to
like go bang my head against a wall or sth
):
i have to stop
i dont want to go through those mistakes all over again

2007-03-11T06:12:00.000-07:00

these few days seem to pass to fast
maybe cause theres so many things going on!
hmmm went for huangcheng ytd
:D super touching!
cried like shit hahahah
but its a good thing bah (:
i guess..
the people in front of us were looking behind cause we were quite loud:S
hahahah. we used up shixian's tissue paper too :S
anw GOOD JOB to the huangcheng people!
theres alot to say about the perf
but i dont feel like writing it out here
shall write in my diary later (:
i realise everyone arond me have such interesting lives!
for example my lover *ahemahem*
hahah and my sister too!
nvm i shall continue my dull and boring life
shall mug later! :D

TURN YOUR FROWNS UPSIDE DOWN(:

D: D: grahgrah!

2007-03-08T05:52:00.000-08:00

): i think im on my verge
my worries are so minor
but i can forsee myself collapsing reall soon
bio test was LSDNFLASDCLKASMDLKFJPIFHBOGJHFD
D: I felt so lost. i started out alright, but towards the middle of the test, for no reason my tummy was aching! the pain was making me lose concentration, and not to mention i had no idea what the question was asking at all! ): whats wrong with me! i was contemplating on whteher i shld go to the washroom or cont with my paper. i decided to remain, but it dint ake me feel any better.
i dint do the whole essay i wrote one sentence. i even had time to count how many marks i left black and i counted 15. what the hell im super pissed and dissapointed with myself.
all these just made me wonder again if i made the right choice in choosing bcme, cause i know for sure i wouldn wnat to have a future thats related to sci ):
I HATE CHOICES ):
and my parents were lecturing me that day cause they refuse to let me study what i want. they insist i shld be a pediatrician.
i seriously dont know what im doing at this point of my life.
maybe im just wasting my time away..

yangyan just left our class
i really wished she could have stayed
then things woldn be that diffrent):
no more laughing at her! rah
even sci labs feel so weird without her arnd..
but as long as shes happy where she is,
we'll all be happy for her too!:D
hmm i shall talk aout her bdae (:
we went kbox haha my first time there
got damn high we kept singing the same few songs ovver and over again!
before meeting up with the rest yijing clara and i went to far east to get her roses
stupid yijing says she want roses, but kerara and i wanted sunflowers cause it looks so much happier! and roses look damn emo ( so yijing) but we still got her roses in the end.
hah we were peeling out thorns with our fingers cause there wasnt enough scissors
alot pple came over and say our flowers very nice one more korean woman also say our basket very nice! hahah
i think we must have looked quite poor ting so a woman came over to help us cut thorns:D
she helped us wrap the flowers and everything!
shes damn nice (: (: (:
wanted to give her a lolli but no link so decided not to
went to amk to eat nice laksa super nice!
haha the bus ride on the way there was super amusing
i think we were talking kinda loud :S
then this man bluetooth me this file and the file name was caled " SHUTUP"
i was damn amused
tried opening the file but its not recognised so cannot open
the guy quite rude lah but i still think its quite funny :D

okay! im contraditing myself lah!
i know i shld be studying but here i am, thinking about what i sld blog about
-_______- my chem tut is right beside me but i have no motivation to touch it at all!
i just wnaa sleeeeeeep
anw jiayou huangcheng pple! :D

far far away

2007-03-06T07:27:00.000-08:00

its so hard
when pple judge you with every word that comes out from your mouth
they judge you by what you do and what you dont do
what right do they have to determine our worth with just that one word
even if we choose not to say a thing
they look at you and try hard to guess whats within you
and when all that fails
they get lost in their own disbeliefs
we never learn from our mistakes.

everytime i see her
i still feel thos pangs of fear
of what, i dont know
all the things i wanted to believe in
they all seem like lies
i knew all along i was playing this game
just me myself,
but i had no choice
this was what i held on to
to decieve not just me but everyone else
who am i kidding
just those few words i could never bring myself to say
ill walk away
i just need time..

BIO TEST
MUG MIC):

2007-03-04T03:01:00.000-08:00

if i could walk right through the present and back to the past

2007-02-28T06:39:00.000-08:00

i hate bus rides home alone
especially on late nights

2007-02-23T07:37:00.000-08:00

its so hard
when i see her
it reminds me all over again
that some things never change
the empty emotions scares me
yet its all i want do
because ive gone out of my limit
dont wana think or feel
dont wana know whats real
sometimes i really dont make sense
an attempt todraw conclusions become futile
i dont know what i shld do next

okay random post
in my emo shit mood now ):
sorry about the prev post
was just abit upset
next weeks a hectic week
im dreading all the tests ):
havent been listening in lectures since a long time ago
ive switched off from lessons too :S
ahhhhhhh i think id better start getting serious about my work
shall go mug chem after this (:
JIAYOU mic!

ust came back from co reunion dinner
it was fun! (:
im loving co alot now!
hahahah lazy to list out what happen
can go szuan's blog to read!
haha okay i lazy continue
shall zooom off now!
BYE

my hearts so noisy
but i cant hear it speak
yet it gets so quiet sometimes
i dont know what to do

2007-02-19T05:45:00.000-08:00

THANKS alot
someone thinks im BIMBO
okay maybe i talk bimbo act bimbo
its an insult
i wouldn be this angry if not for from whom this comment came from
no im not angry im just getting a lil edgy beceause i dont know
okay im over reacting
but to trust that the few words you could think of describing me were that im " a bimbo with a good heart"

sorry im not really comforted
what the hell maybe youre right
from that day and from a long time ago
i tried hard to stop myselef from sinking into my thoughts
and everytime i cant help but do so
i realised my thoughts revolve around that same old thing
im trying hard to get out of this damn shit but sometimes it jsut doesnt work
abd when it doesnt i shut myself up
till i find another way to change the way i feel,
its gonna remain that way
my thoughts are stagnant i really cant help it
tell me a way how i can get out of this mess ive got myself into

youre not the only one
i hate myself for doing the things i do
i think
i worry
for what
theyre all the same things all over aagin
and i get damn upset all over again
i hate that feeling
they think they know
no you dont because
i dont even know what im saying
I JUST WANNA SCREAM

2007-02-19T04:12:00.000-08:00

YAYYYYYYY i finally got this silly new blogger thing to work!
:D nothing much to blog about now
my life is dull and boring!
HAHAHAHA BUHBYE! (:

anw HAPPY NEW YEAR
& like yijing says, HAPPY EVERYDAY :D

2007-01-26T08:26:00.000-08:00

IM EXHAUSTED!
BADMINTON TRAINING IS RAHRAHRHAH :s
dont know if i can survive
and comp and syf will clash!
and i need time for tuition
rahrahrha! tell me what t do?
shld i just stick t co or what
HELP ME! ):
yeah lifes fulfilling
but im too tired t think
im doubting about capabilities t cope with all the things im doing.
theres HCCOprac GECOprac RDAsessions YOGAlessons BADMINTONtrainings BADMINTONsessions with friends.
BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH ):

2007-01-21T05:48:00.001-08:00

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me
and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you

all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right

you and me and all of the people
with nothing to donothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of you
you and me and all of the people
with nothing to donothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know whyI can't keep my eyes off of you

what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive

just listen t what she has t say,
shes not making you stay

2007-01-21T05:48:00.000-08:00

2007-01-18T07:16:00.000-08:00

i wrote that song for you today
and i did something i shldn have done
i suck

2007-01-09T05:00:00.000-08:00

i dont feel so much anymore because ive sucessfully protected myself,defended myself from my feelings by being so hyper analytical, so cerebral in reference t my defenses.
but im breaking down, just today
SUCKS to this feeling
im at the peak of my depression
so many things on my mind
i just want smone t talk to
smone t laugh with
i want t be HAPPY like before!
): ): ): ): ): ): ):
i hope everyone else whos sad out there cheers up soon!

2007-01-06T00:09:00.000-08:00

hello(:
i was very happy and smiley till i got t know of some stuff
my maid is very upset now
and theres nth much i can do
cause her mummy's very ill now
got her the air tickets t go back for a week
the only thing i can do is t pray for her t be strong
cause its sth she has t encounter anyhow
its jsut a matter of time
its a horrible feeling t lose smone you love
and its especially horrible t know your time with that smone is nearing an end
not knowing how t prepare yourself for the day the person leaves your world
its gna be tough on her but she will be strong i know (:

talking t audrey now about subj combi
im trying not t think of the worse
i really dont know what im good at
and what im good at is not what i like
all those shit choices i have t make
its ridiculous how we have t make choices that will affect our life so early
i cant believe im thinking about all these at this stage of my life
hai i guess i have t understnd its no more comfort zone
it never was and that facts goona hit me more real than before
i chose sci in the end
ill make myself like it i will
i MUST
its my fault i cant do humans my eng sucks i cant take lit
ill have t deal with that
trying t convince myself ill be a child doc next time
not that bad a career i dont mind
but i dont feel atease
i hate this feeling
im really lost
): that feeling sucks!
and i dont even know who t talk to
it seems im the only one so unsure
everyone else know what they want in life
fine its just me
i pray i wont live t regret
i can just see myself breaking down next yr

):

change topic so depressing
ive alr made my choice
no use lamenting
ill have t work hard! haha
went for RDA today
its our training course!
super fun
sihui got to ride a horse for the first time in her life :D
and i got t ride my horsey too
its diff from those i rode in yunnan on the mountains
but it was still exciting(:
met many new pple and we were the youngest of the whole batch
the rest of them were smu pple and some other nj pple
desmond was sharing stories about quirky kids
really interesting i cant wait t side walk!
on the way home at the bust stop
i met a lil malay girl with her parents
she was so cute! she smiled at me
and we both started playing peek a boo behind the bust stop notice board frames
hahahaha! so cute (:
heh and she waved bye bye t me before she left
i love her ! ok sounds wrong
but a smile seemed t make so much a difference(:
and looking at the world thru the eyes of a child seemed so much more simple
i like being young! who cares if im childish!hahaha i dont wana grow up!
adults like t make things complicated
find problems and making their own lives miserable
whats the point of getting so upset everyday
smile and be jolly!
have fun dont complain and enjoy!
but then again dont waste ur time away (:

hc oreintation has been fun so far
met new friends talked t them and got t know them better!
hahaha very interesting
watching each character unfold was quite amusing
haha shall talk about it aft everything ends bah!
was in the hall that day
and some pple's conversation almost made me laugh out loud but i couldn!
ahhaah but i feel quite sad for them also
sure they have fun with their friends getting high and all
but what my friend said made me wonder
she asked me if those pple actually like being like that
clubbing, hanging out, shopping, gossiping blahblah
its fun! but it seems like the only things they do with each other
spreading runours saying mean things and talking behind ur own friends back
ridiculous things pple do
theyre only on the surface
are the friends they make really true
hahah ok enough crap
i cant be bothered with their lives
im happy with my own now! hahah

cant wait for porgy outing! (:
TATA

theres so much more

2006-12-28T05:30:00.000-08:00

our defects, our dangerous depths, our suppressed hatreds, our moments of weakness and desperation- all are unimportant. we accept all that is wrong about us- and despite it, believe that we are deserving of a happy life- then we will have thrown open an immense window that will allow love t enter. little by little, our defects will dissapear, because one who is happy can look at the world only with love- the force that regenerates every thing that exists in the universe (:

thats what my sweetie wrote for me in her card(:
thanks dear, im happy super high now!
haahha ok not as high as just now
was running arnd the hse like mad dog
too inlfuenced by kiki baby (:
i recieved xmas cards! i thought i wouldn get any this yr heh thankyou t those who bothered wishing in one way or another!
i read all the cards and was so touched!
HAHA ok no other word t describe
but thanks t eveyone(:

for the past few days ve been busy at the temple
my daddy signed up for the 100 million om mani pad mi hung
so i went for two days
was dreading it but i had fun!
hahahah my cousin and i were self amusing
and the two guys behind us were so amused at us they kept laghing at us
heh the pple there all very friendly so nice
can randomly talk t anytone! aahahaha so smiley
hahaha and i got eye candy there!
so malu cause i wanted t fill hot water for my auntie t make her water warm
then i touch the tap the red thing dropped off!
my heart drop lahh
hahahah then the uncle walk past then he laughed at me ):
very cute but he nv help me
then some guy came by and helped me fix dint even have the chance t thank him buyt he left alr :S thn i went t try again
and it dropped again! i almost wnted t scream alr
then another ah peh laughed at me!
lucky thing sachikos lao shi came t my rescue
hahahah yay nice pple!
lalala i like my eye candy (: (:
hehh but i wont see him anymore
haii you yuan zai xiang jian! ahaha crap lah
going back temple on sunday! hope t see my eye candy
hahaha keep seeing so many pople that resembles my eye candy :S
hahah blahblahblahblahblah
anyway i feel so happy and blessed t be able t chant!
i was thinking that if dint go for the recitation i would have spent my day in such a waste
sudd realised how impt time was t me
nxy yr im goona volunteer with my cousins! hehh

i went out t crap with haiying today
ahahah makes me laugh all e time wahaha
we were both lamenting about how sad our lives were
and that next yr our lives may be more exciting
ahhaha then must entertain each other like meet up every mth!
met chen wei and sijia so scary
hahaha was just a few sconds diff hahaha
anw i envy the auntie at bishan mrt staion
she can sing so well! how i wish i can sing like her ):
humph at lleaast i dont go out of tune ;like my lover hehhhh!
talking bout szuan! i think she passed me her disease
i fell down twice today! :S drop my money somemore
so suay still missed all my busses
in e end i took shuttle bus waited for an hr ;s
rahhhhh hahaha
my poor butt lah the unlce and auntie still ask me if im ok.
):

hmm i feel bad
cause the xmas cards i made this yr was so unmeanungful
sorry guys ): dint have time was an excuse
i guess i wasnt in the mood bah
hahah esp when i recieved so many cards today!
blehh :S so guilty
rahh i always do things then make myself regret aft that
dont know whats wrong with me also
been so bao zao
was so irritable on the phone today
even mummy said theses sth wrong with me
pardon me ):
i shall take note of myself more
tell me if im being unreasonable

rahh im typing in the dark now!
bad for eyes
haha like my uncle says must respect ur eyes!
bahh ok i gtg alr.
hahaha tmr will be a funday!
ge outing! :D
TATA

2006-12-24T02:44:00.000-08:00

hello!
i just woke up from my long long slumber
the weathers jsut perfect for sleeping
hehh and i was too tired t carry myself out of bed anyway :D
ytd was my lover's bdae!
lots lots of things happened quite malu :S
but it was a worthy day!

i shall start from the start
feeb and i met t go szuans hse togt
i refused t reply her msg!
so we surprised her at her hse :D
wahahaha. gave her her farm stars book pencil case and her tiara!
hope she likes it (:
then sharon and tingwei came over as her bdae surprise
cause we tricked szuan into believing sharon couldn make it cause her mother had an urgent scan and couldn leave her side
and she believed! tsktsk
spastic sharon and tingwei did a performance for szuan and brought her the cake and big pooh helium ballon! :D
i was wondering who that woman in red was scared me lah!
sharon wore her sunglasses couldn recognise her hahaha
so we crapped around had lunch took pictures blahblah
and feeb and sharon left around 1 plus
cause feeb had t rush for her bbq party at nicks hse
sharon met with tw t go back t hosp
hahah only left me and my lover!
haha we went t marina sq t walk walk
saw lots of sailor things and we started hyperventilating!
cause we both want t marry sailors :P
hahah secret secret
every shop we went into, we would bang on their shelves
the shop keeper kept staring at us :S
MALU keep dropping the things we took out t see
hahaha ;p

i feel so kind!
i donated 5 bucks t this very cute boy!
ok not boy lil guy hahaha
we were laughing about our malu behaviour in the accessories shop
then he suddenly pop out of nowhere then we xia dao
he asked if he scared us then we said yes hahaha
but hesvery funny!
cause hes 17 but he looks younger than us
he talks in a very slow and gentle tone
and his surname is tham too!
then we started talking about where we;re both from
spastic but very ke ai! ahahah :P
both of us couldn stop laughing
i think we must have scared him ahhaha
we shld have found out what the organisation is then can work there too!
hahaha ok whatever mic -__-

dodo szuan wanted to find her lil lil shops but she didnt know where it was
still insist she went there before
so i went t ask the lady at some toy section where the cinema is
and when i looked into her eye i reslised she has the same specs as me!
hahahah what a strange day! then i was so excited i told e woman about the same specs
then swe all started laughing again. so ciao

shopshopshop but dint buy anything excpt for a thingyt put my phone in
too much scratches alr hahah must learn t protect my phone :S
dint get t buy my darling eeyore it was on sale
ten bucks only!so big somemore
pls pls pls someone buy that for me ):
if only ihad money i really wanted it ):
hai nvm lah let those kids have it
hahaha

we decided t go back t esplanadae t walk walk then a huge xmas tree caught our eyes!
hahaha we were busy observing the tree then sudd some random woman appreaed and shocked us both again! hahaha sth wrong w us again lah
then she explainded t us about how the tree was real but beause theres no sunlight its dying
then i burst out laughing again! ahhahah
anw its part of a really meaningful event
its like we donate money t buy each child a present
dint have money though
but we both decided t buy the famine bear (:
e least we can do bah

piggy szuan wanted t eat so we went to gluttons bay t have our hokien mee!
we got reminded of our marriage that nv took place!
so we decided t relive those times
we held hands walking down the aisle haha
and imgained those shiny things hanging down were greeting messages from pple t us! ahhaha
so spastic
aftdinner, we bought coconut and carved our names on it :D
met huimin there so scary
she doesnt look like what i thought she would be
hahaha nvm not the point
lover and i went by the riverside and sat down there t chat as we ate our cocnnut hahaha
very happy we got t talk alot
its hard t open up sometimes but im glad i told her stuff that were kept in me
she told me some stuff too
i dont even know what t feel
maybe im just tired of everything too
hahaha we talked alot about problems blahblah
well at least we still have each other! :D

talked about serious stuff on the bus ride home
then sudd got some kids shouting so loudly on the bus
hahaha then we started alughing cause it seems like a weird place t be talking about such stuff
hahaha but it was fun lah(: then szuan said dont feel liker her bdae hahah
so funny hahaha
aft that we reached home bathe
and we went down t play sparklers!
all kept from last yr brought one box down t her condo car park t play
i almost burned an old woman
she was walking around the place and i threw one sparkler cause i wanted t see it fly!
lucky nothing happened :S
hahaha mdae wishes and played alot alot of sparklers (:

when we went back up we played with play dough and paper dolls!
hahahah shall upload pictures later! very fun, i felt young :D
hahaha talked trhough the night until we got sore throats smore
wahahah ok in conclusion it was a memorable day !
JOY its christmas eve
may the spirit of xmas be in ur hearts
let love be in the air this season!
TATA i need t shoo for dinner now!

i only want t know if youre still there
give me a sign, something.
anything..

2006-12-21T06:57:00.000-08:00

im happy!
hahahha just came back from genting and kl!
was super fun trip
managed t shop bought stuff for pple (:
my spastic cousins never fail t amuse me
we laugh over ridiculous things!
though not all the cousins were there
we all enjoyed oursevles (: hehh
had a good talk with all of them on the last night
dint dfall alseep till about three plus
im glad i knew more things about my cousins after the talk
it made me understnd them alil more (:
the trip took my mind off stuff and i felt relieved
i realied that feeling aint that bad
i teared for a short while but i got back t laughing again
im glad t have my family and friends arnd me!
the moment i turned on my phone there were messages greeting me
i was so touched! (: now im back! hahaha
time t adjust tlife here alr. hahah
lots of things t settle
made presents this morning with feeb
made mosiac mirrors!
making presents is so much fun!
hahahah tmr szuan and feeb coming over (:
HAPPY hahahah!
i shall shoo off t make presents too!
time is running out!
TATA (:

behind those eyes

2006-12-13T18:09:00.000-08:00

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted foreverAnd ended so soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark grey sky
I was changed...
Chrous
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry (The moment I saw you cry )

Verse 2
It was late in September and I've seen you before
You were always the cold one
But I was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark grey sky I was changed...

Chorus
In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything... Alright

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
In places no one will find
All your feelings so deep inside
Forever was in your eyes
It was there that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry
The moment that I saw you crying
I think I saw you cry
The moment I saw you cry
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you
I wanted to know you

i saw someone cry in the corner of a crowded place
she looked really sad ):

2006-12-09T00:49:00.000-08:00

hello! i just woke up from a long long slumber :D
im super exhuasted! been going t watch NAC competition every single day
very tiring! but its very rewarding cause ive really learnt alot
i realised alot more about what is good music what is bad
and how impt it is t play with your heart, taifeng, blahblahblah
but most importantly,being natural
no use having so much action and zhuang shi yin when there is no substance t your music
the music has t flow if not the melody would sound very abrupt and not ncie at all
there were some pple that cmi or that they had skills jsut not the right feel or theyre intepretation was jsut weird, and there were those that i really pitied cause it seems like they have been cheated of money from their tcher cause what they played was :S
but at the same time i really admire those pple who went up t compete
even though i was able t criticise, i myself was lacking of many things
aye whatever im no talent in my ruan
thats why i was so impressed by those lil kids who could really play!
hahah JIAYOU t all the others who got into finals! :D

as i heard zhang rong hui's students talking
i suddenly realised how old i was
i feel totally dettached from the co circle
i remeber how i used t be like them
talking and discussing and maybe even gossiping a lil
now im not bothered by whos who and blahblah
no more wu liao talks,
im there only t listen and nothing else
even if my mind starts t wander off
the tunes and notes lead me back t where i am
thats why im enjoying my everyday!
i guesslike my lao shi said there comes a day when all u go in t here for a concert is the qualityy
and you become critical of whats playing on stage
i may not be qualified t judge quality
at least im enjoying my music im playing (:
all those petty talks i hear around me are just disgusting t me

maybe its true they say that music needs t have money
or else theres a limit t where a person can go
i used t know friends taht can play but have no money t cont ruan
the world's just so practical
but its just like that
i hoep those rich kids know how lucky they are t be able t get good tchers get good environments t develop their potentials
cause there are pple out there who wish t be in their positions but can nv make it

ok its 5! i need t bathe and get ready for prac! (:
TATA

i made a wish for myself today
& theres one for you
be happy (:

2006-12-05T07:02:00.000-08:00

oh its another happy day!
hahaha cause we got in!
yayy (: i dont care what others say
imhappy anyway! :D
LALALALA
LAUGHING MAKES YOU LIVE LONGER(:
laugh more!
so many spastic and random things happened
im lazy t say them all
but i love geco! and the pple
hahaha cause they make it special!
HAPPINESS CAN BE SO RANDOM!
TATA (:

2006-12-03T21:31:00.000-08:00

HAHAH im happy today :D
haha talked t haiying ytd frm like ten plus all the way till 5 30!
hahah madness lah we crapped so much we started laughing at how amusing we were
its fun t talk abt random stories and laugh together
then we both started getting emo
she said she's currently on some self discovery thingy
trying t find out about herself!
hahaha i burst out laughing
she never fails t amuse me man
hahahah all her crazy stories sofunny lah!
been so long since ive even talked on the phone
feels good t relive those spastic memories in sec sch life! :D
even thoguh we're on diffrent paths of lives, its wen xin t chat up once in a while (:
and our conclusion was that everything around us is strange! hahaha aft all the weird encounters with weird pple that we shared hahaha
yay i hope t see her on friday!
go watch the ruan nac comp with her and sijia! hehhh
ok one more day to NAC!
hahah i dont feel nervous yet
im just worried ill screw!
esp all those sao xuan parts can die lah
so exposed :S
but i still love yu lin lin
its such a deep song very different from those ive played before (:
it gives me this feeling of nothingness yet theres sth deeper on the inside
haha whatever lah lazy t describe hehh
ill definitely remember all these experiences :D
JIAYOU everybody!

im sorry it turned out this way
i didnt mean for it t be like that
but whatever it is
ill be there for you
whenever you need me
thats a promise
i only want t understand you
dont tell me thats wrong

2006-12-01T00:03:00.000-08:00

all these random images just keep popping up
& it keeps bothering me till i had no choice but t pen them down. must be due to boredom i guess
theres nothing t do at home!
can only read books ): so SIAN
wanna go out but theres really no one who has any time t spare these days! its driving me mad alr.
hahah lucky im still sane.
sister and i got so bored ytd we decided t play games!
played boomo and mastermind!
hahah so happy i managed t solve all the problems with less than 5 steps! :D YEEPS hahah proves that my brain still exists!
dint expect such an illogical perseon like me could do it WAHA(:

hmm im going penang soon! hahah ok not yet
but im excited! can go there take a breather and discard everything thats on my mind now
and be superficial for once, go sun tan, shop!
i could just lay on the beach for the whole day ill be sooo HAPPY!
i hope i wont miss my lover's bdae):
ill be really sadd
packed up my room ytd
feels great t throw all my old stuff away!
like a burden off your chest :D
and i did it all in a day! yay!

hahaha whats left is new phone, snickers, and im waiting for my new geeky specs!
then ill complete my nerd look alr
yay i shall design my own shoe with feeb again!
SO EXCITING! RAHHRAHH
for joy and laughter fun and excitement, i dyed my hair!
my poor scalp needs intensive care now ):
hahaha & my wallet is not bimbo nette! bleahhh

lalala i must watch charlottes web! the piggy is CUTEEEEE!
HAHAHAH cuter than kiki baby (: hehhh
shall see when i have time and when pple can go out :S
for now,COMPETITION IS PRIORITY!
off t get ready for prac!
TATA

2006-11-29T01:09:00.000-08:00

wishful thinking and figments of the past
which of the two is more real
seems like a hazy distinction
when that presence seems t be a futile attempt t verify traces of things ive tried hard to forget
now things look so unreal
memories so elusive
it still comes back these days
just not so often
i like happy endings cause theyre so hard to comeby(:

hahaha ok random! 6 more days t NAC! JIAYOU everybody! :D
ok im gona be late need t bathe now!
TATA

2006-11-26T09:41:00.000-08:00

hahahah! my wallet! handmade (: yeeps!

materials!

the kinda finished product but not yet done! haha i forgot t take pic of the finished masterpiece will upload it next time(:

2006-11-23T08:06:00.000-08:00

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/

go try this damn cool!

You want to be regarded as an exiting and interesting personality able to persuade others to comply with your beliefs and ideas. You are charming and able to influence other people who come into your sphere of influence. You like mental stimulation and you are the sort of person who is prepared to 'try anything once'. Your confidence is so much so that others are often swept away by your enthusiasm.

You are working extremely hard - perhaps even above and beyond the call of duty. You are preparing for the future and therefore trying to build a firm trouble-free foundation upon which you may base all of your dreams and aspirations.

Matters are not progressing as well as you would have hoped and you are having to make concessions - but you still believe that your goals are realistic it's just that people can't seem to see your point of view. You know what you want but you'll only accept suggestions under duress.

You refuse to relax or to give in and you are endeavouring to keep exhaustion and depression at bay by keeping active. You are experiencing a relationship or a situation which is not satisfactory but you feel powerless to change it. You have that 'need to be needed' but you do little to achieve the sense of belonging that you need. You try to disguise your feelings of insecurity and so you continue to resist this state of affairs - and as a consequence you are experiencing tension and stress. Your depression makes you irritable and impatient. You have that urge to get away from the situation, either actually or mentally.

You are finding it increasingly difficult to concentrate.Resentment and stress, due to your present circumstances and/or your unfulfilled emotional needs, have produced considerable anxieties. You would like to get away from it all to somewhere that could be the personification of sympathy and understanding. That 'somewhere' could be close by: relax and let go - take a deep breath and look around - the situation may not be as bad as it seems.

2006-11-19T08:25:00.000-08:00

how i wish i could sing!
WISHWISHWISH

2006-11-16T07:10:00.000-08:00

there is so much vigour to claim the day as yours and make the present your own, yet there is something in the beauty of waiting that we often let slip away (:

went library t kill time again today
i managed t read two books (:
in the pond by Ha Jin and a bibliography of Elizabeth choy
and i finally got my own library card!
hahaha yay! im on my way t being geek
hahah i guess my progress is not bad so far
met justin at bishan sat same bus as him
hahahah so ciao :D
hai okay i have no mood for writing
feeling rather down now
if only i could get a cage or sth
to lock all those unhappy and unpleasant things in it
so nothing spills out or gets out of that cage
these things always get in my way and i cant seem to chase them away
ill be so much happier, tell them to go away ):

i couldn help it i cried on the bus today
tear glands are acting up again
damn it
i must have looked damn absurd
i held the shell real tight between my fingers
its presence comforted me
then i stopped crying and stared at e world outside
things looked different today

i tell myself that it wasnt right from the start
it was a love doomed to end
and it consoles me
somehow
memories i ised to relish
only seem to bring tears t my eyes

2006-11-14T07:41:00.000-08:00

RAH one moment ago, i was praying i wont die so soon
okay im still praying
but my maid told me not to think too much
hahah i hope shes right :S
if i really die, i shall live my remaining days to the fullest!
hahaha do things i like and want to do!
(: like my bdae dream
heh im glad my hols havent been wasted away
went to lib today and i read finish one book
i dint really understand the story but i survived it through
its called the antelope wife
weird story plot
i want to be member!
i couldn borrow my glass palace
ughhh i need a membership!
met lots of familiar pple
like some geper, jiali, random niehgbours dont know name :S
and MRS EE AND HER SON!
hhahaha i was so amused, what a tiny world
hai i want to go bottle tree village ):
but jiebin meixuan and peijin went without me
:S break my heart lah
hai maybe i go there alone some day
cant wait for o's to be over!
shall watch step up and happy feet! :D
i just finished painiting my picture
since smemories somehow fade someday
i thought it would be nice to put my artistic talent to use!
hahahaha still quite happy with the art piece
one more painting to go
i need drawing paper and paint !

to less than strangers
somehow, that distance seemed less beautiful
in memory of ..

2006-11-12T08:27:00.000-08:00

God's strategy for broken trees, limbs and hearts is not repair but growth, not being patched up but being granted the gift of starting over

i guess theres a reason for why i dont do certain things
i dont do things t show im normal
i dont do things t prove im special
i dont do things t impose on others what i feel because they dont give a damn
i dont do things t impress because theres no need to
i dont do things t show how strong i appear to be
i dont do things just t please who i need to please
i dont do things t make myself miserable
i dont do things t make an impression on a random passerby just t have him leave in the end
i dont do things t make myself happy because i think i already am
i dont do things only t make myself regret and suffer

i dont do things simple because im scared
thats such a lousy excuse for all the things i left unsaid and undone

2006-11-12T04:32:00.000-08:00

HELLO! hahah ok so lame whenever i blog i always get the feeling that i'm just talking to myself then i feel so bai chi -______-
but never mind lah writing feelings out is fun (:
lets see its bout 5 more weeks till china pple come back ):
i miss them!!
boohoo its okay, staying in singapore has been quite exciting
yesterday i went RDA again and i took photo of my black beauty!
shamus is such a lovely horse, her fringe is nicer than mine
and her colour is solid brownish black super shuai :D
i love Dylan! he has mild autism but other than that, hes a perfectly normal kid
and hes really talkative too, very nice lil boy!
i hope i get to sidewalk him again next week heh
after service, rushed home for gathering
was praying hard for the rain to stop and the rain really stopped!
thank god (:
the bbq was really fun
cousins sharing problems and crapping around
esp when everyones life gets so busy and its hard to come togt nowadays
we may not play warden, dark, marco polo or jump around in beds anymore
but im glad we're still the cubee cousins! :D
parents gave us wine
and my cousin and i were very curious as to how it felt to be drunk
so we drank and drank
she drank bout 5 glasses i drank bout 4
everyone except my sis and clarrissa were not drunk
we all had red faces super comical lah!
not my first time at alcohols but first time getting drunk (:
i have a conclusion!
its rather fun to get drunk
cause we laugh and laugh like mad
saying things like nobody's business
ive never really been so happy for a really long time
and it was a nice feeling
many pple say drunk pple spout nonsense
i think its the other way round
we're more sober when we're drunk
hahah i dont know
maybe like what zhengyou said, we get that high and happy feeling when we're drunk only because we dont feel the happiness coming from right inside
back t my crazy cousins,
we played game of life!
its our cousin gathering tradition hahaha
a bunch of drunkards talking crap and playing life
the game ended up with cars crashing and pple under houses and us laughing away, even the parents came in to laugh at us
my cousin and i wanted more wine so she went out to ask for more
the parents actually refilled the empty wine bottle with 7 up!
hahahaha! quite spastic lah
oh i love bbq marshmellows!
i love singing out loud while strumming at guitar!
i love hiding under the table!
i love laughing away with the other drunkards!
at least i had fun (:

as for today, we brought Kiki to the vet for her last vaccination
ghahah the vet super funny!
we come in only he told us not to do the injection today if not the dog willd DIE
then we all immediately shock
then he explainedthat kiki was having the kennel cough
so he prescrbed medication instead
heh at least kiki liked the yello medicine so she licked it away when we poured in on the spoon (:
i hope she gets well soon!
i think shes passing the flu and cough to me
i started coughing and sneezing
hmph its kiki's fault!
so im not allowed t go near her now ):
but very happy! cause the vet said shes a really pretty dog
he say if we interested to breed must tell him!
hahah hes damn funny lah. (:

ohh kayaking was FUN FUN FUN!
it was super strenous but my muscle aches are gone alr!
heh talked quite alot to huiling too
shes a nice girl :D
shared some secrets and abit of gossip :P
we kayaked the double kayak togt
but kinda shi bai though :S
hahaha we kept using jiebin as moticvation
HAHAHAH dint regret choosing kayaking
i may want to take 2 star again! heh
see who want to go with me first (:

tmr going to hcco and nyco pract! hahaha
shall go see see :D
shall stop here
TATA

when you came haunting me in my dreams

2006-11-06T20:32:00.000-08:00

YAYYAY we have a new family member!
shes a 3 mth old shih tzu
with a gold and white colour
its her third day at her new home!
hahahah shes sooo adorable
kiki is making good progress on her potty training(:
she always has that wu gu expression on her face
hehhheh i love her!
shall upload her picture up one day :D
tmr is kayaking im quite excited but quite scared
scared about what i also dont knw
but i hope it will be fun!
shall try to make it down to ge if im not too tired
if not poor layting will be the only poor soul in tanbo
hehh! jiebin daoed me!
and i lost the kayaking paper
dont know what to wear and what to bring
to think mr kuo called me jsut now but i forgot t ask him
he spoke so fast i thought he was some mr poh guy :S
hahahah so hectic these few days go here go there
rahh! JIAYOU MIC(:

give me a palette, ill add the colours(:

2006-11-04T04:20:00.000-08:00

went to RDA today again!
haha it was our first time out in the ranch
i was feeling really nervous becasuse i had totally no experience with horses
but i was more afraid of how i was going to interact with the kids during their therapy sessions
met alot of other peers arnd our age some older
they were very quite nice though dint get to talk to them much
but it was nice to know they are other pple doing same things like yuo (:
we went there early, but zhi an wasnt there yet
so we walked arnd by ourselves
heh when she came she briefed us on the horses and what we shld and shld not do
i really want to be a leader! then i can grroom the horses and get to know them better
hahah but that shall wait :D
i got to side walk with some francis guy hes damn pro i was so redundant standing next to him
the rider was a lil ang moh boycalled eddie
hahah he had a short attn span so our job was to try to let him focus more on the horse riding
as well as to improve his ability to lsten to instructuions
hahah he was no big prob except that he always zones out and cant sit straight up
so francis the pro started to interact with him while i stood there watching him do the job
learnt some new techniques, like keeping the sterring haha dont know what its called
as well as adjusting the sterring for it to be at the ankle position
dint get to talk much to eddie he was very dao!
and i was frightned :S
hahah but the second session was much better :D
i was assigned to this autistic boy called zachary
hes really cute!
hahahah wanted to pinch his cheeks
haha but he kept crying out loudly
the cindee came t the rescue!
haah she managed to get his attn and calmed him down
wahh it was nerve wreacking
haha damn stress! hahah
for some fun, cindee allowed the horsey to trot
i was sooo soooo freaked out!
cause i scared the horse move too fast then i cant catch up
then if i reach the horse's butt he will kick!
haha that kind of fear was :S haha indescribable
so zach made such a fuss he had to be dismounted or else his condition would manifest
he almost wanted to jump down the horse!
lucky thing cindee and suzi helped him get down safely
so worried for him
after he alighted, he started screaming and i had to grab hold of his hand
suzi held on to him incase he hurt himself while in the fit
i was dumbstrucked, totaly at a lost of what to do
then his mama came then he suddenly became very calm and looked as if nothing happened
hahah it was really an eye opener
some parent of a 19 yr old guy talked to me about how she saw some father with 2 autistic kids
he was so caught up with taking care of his kids he almost went bonkers
then suzi and her started talking about their own kids and how blessed they were
gan chu liang duo!
hahahaha i felt really blessed too
those parents and their love for their kids
those kids and how blessed they were t be doing things they liked
i remb the first time i went i was so frightened of this autistic girl called vannessa
cause i heard they could turn violent when provoked
but i was so wrong!
theiyre really like any of us
kids that get humgry
kids that get bored
kids that want to have fun
kids that want excitement
kids that want their mama and papas by them
hahah very happy i get a chance to join RDA :D

2006-11-02T09:19:00.000-08:00

hahah very happy today!
cause sihui peijin and i went down to RDA
riding for disabled association :D
very peaceful there
heh took us quite some time to get there
got lost along the way
but still very fun!
hahahah i love horses!
cant wait for saturday
i get to be the sidewalker while interactiing with all those kids
heh sth to look forward to!
talked quite alot to sihui too
hmm talked about pple changing in JC
quite sad, but i guess its ineveitable
i think ive changed from sec one too
i dont know
hahaha. okay its late shall sleep le!
BOTTLE TREE VILLAGE!
booo i cant wait to go there too
but mon wed and fri have pract gonna be busy ruaning
hahah prac prac prac
over come taht fear :S
JIAYOU mic (:

damn it
what have i got myself into

2006-10-31T00:12:00.000-08:00

i learnt two songs on the guitar alr! YAY
hahah its very shuang strumming on a guitar and singing out loud like its no bodys business, really can fa xie all the men qi inside :D
HAI everyones going overseas these few days
life's goona be boring alr!
hahah i wanaa learn salsa!
quick quick someone tell me you wnaa learn too
then we can go learn together!
brrrrrrrr

i wanna walk out of this crap, but its so hard
just like her, i wish i never knew you
maybe my life would have been easier

2006-10-23T05:34:00.001-07:00

its important to know when something has reached its end.
closing circles, shutting doors, finishing chapters, it doesnt matter what we call it;
what matters is to leave in the past those moments in life that are over
of what had seemed to be an endless inferno were now beginning to show their true meaning(:

telling stories to empty our past and filling those spaces with new beginnings makes us feel lighter but not any happier

inspiration from zahir
now i know what it means to feel worldly after reading a book
listening to pples stories and words in their lyrics
it somehow makes you feel youre not facing the world alone
how someone who seems so different from you can be so alike
bringing those thoughts to a differnt meaning
adds on to your beliefs
and opens up your inner self to things you never wanted to face
makes you realise the courage in you
its another a reflection of myselff in words
they actually undestand me better than i do (:

books aside i shall talk about happy things!

things couldnt have been better since my bdae! hahaha bdae was so exciting!
screamt ill i no voice already (:
i wrote about it in my diary (:
was lazy to on the com but big thanks to those who remembered!
really really touched :D
cliche cliche but words cant express the bliss i felt! hahah
i love my friends :D
i can never remember a persons bdae so i admire those who can
hahah but THANKS again for those who made it special(:

went sentosa yesterday super fun!
hahah wanted to take cable car but we had no money
so we decided to walk from harbour front
BUT we ended up getting lost at some cruise place
hahah so we decided to take the bus there in the end
there was a long long queue of people
we did lots of stupid things
like eating on the tower and i saw a couple frenching by accident :S oops
hahah sihui has nice biscuits!
jul is obsessed with her laogong -_______-
peggy is crazy over her butter hahaha
called ms ewe to threaten her
went to play sand
been so long since i play with sand alr!
hahaha built some cube thingy :D
very pretty (: then we played with the ball that i took great pains to blow up
and the bally kept falling into the sea
the grp of indian man must have thought we were crazy
hahaha malu cause they always help us pick :S
heh then it started to rain!
wind was super big, so we all went koufu to eat (:
shared fish and chips with sihui
the aunty talk to us heh we look friendly!
bought my colopufrul necklace with them and we wore them togt
hahah okay im listing everything out doesnt sound interesting anymore
cause i very tired to type hahaha
we cycled the double bicycle! hahaha
so exciting!
first time in my whole life
kept screaming cause peggy keeps giving me heart attacks
suddenly go very fast then always almost end up banging into people
jul and sihui banged into a lil boy then jul's tramuatised haha poor sihui
then we got tired so we stopped at some ulu part of the beach and sat down on the floor to eat(:
tried to suntan lah but no sun!
how disappointing hahaha
took pictures with monkey or baboon hah whatever its called
the uncle very nice heh he specially waited for us cause jul was plastering her leg
the monkey high five with me!
hahah damn cute :D :D
then we returned our bikes
decided to play the sky ride thingy and the luge ride
WAHAHAHA we screamed all the way up!
peggy's the worse lah have to cover my ears high pitch voice somemore lah
at the luge ride, jul banged into the bush -_______-
shes pro (:
hahahah. by that end of the rides we were exhausted
was really happy that day, very long never feng and play so much since dont know when :D
we made our way to harbour front
decided to walk back from sentosa cause too many pple on the bus
peggy and jul started to analyse the sea water while sihui and i ran away from them
we hide behind the bush hahahha
reached vivo city!
remind me of esplanade, same kind of feeling
went candy empire :D
so many pple there, then peggy daddy come alr
so theyy left me to take mrt myself ):
booohooo
hahahah so i slept on the bus home (:
the end! i wont forget that day (:
sorry for the short account, im not good at summarising
summary fail :S

back to my bdae, oops i feel so random
hahahaha i wanna thank szuan here!
thanks for keeping to ur promise to countdown with me along with xiquan and sijia :D
you guys brightened up my first new day in the year (:
those spastic moments we shared , ill never forget
and for the lil forest and hut !
you made my dream come true :D
it really meant alot (:
and the white guitar oh man i wanted to scream but i couldnt!
my daniel is a bit small but tis okay i like it cute this way! hahah
thnk you thnkyou
thanks to everyone who bothered making my day special and memorable
even those spastic messages made me smile too :D
my juniors and the book was really touching too
from the worst day of my life to the happiest day of my new yr ahead!
cant tahnk everyone here theres too many (:
forget all those broken promises
forget all those heartaches
forget all those tears
forget all those betrayals
forget all those misunderstandings
forget all those unhappiness
forget all those cowardice
cause its a new start (:
at least for me hehheh
i know i can and i will

made a promise to myself :
live each present like a new beginning (:
dont do a disservice to yourself by binding yourself in the past
lifes too short to mourn for what has left
find that happiness!
hahaha and my bdae wish's the same everyyear:
for everyone be happy

ONE day my dreams will come true! as long as i believe :D

for now i shall mug hard for the chinese o levels
and read more books cause
one day i will be able to write like gloria!
hahahaah i need a good command of english as sihui said in order to study psychology
hmm i shall work hard for it then!
im not goonna let myself down again!
ADD OIL MIC :D
MUG MIC

2006-10-23T05:34:00.000-07:00

2006-10-17T21:28:00.000-07:00

MY HUSBAND (:

2006-10-17T08:02:00.000-07:00

TMR MARKS A NEW BEGGINING
WHAT I REALLY NEED NOW IS SOME PLACE TO SCREAM!
WHAT A BIG JOKE LIFE CAN BE
you make me so scared

i want my forest and lil house now nownownownow ):
tell me how i can make that pain go away
I HATE THIS FEELING

2006-10-15T09:14:00.000-07:00

randy died ):
am sad.
maggy lost her blackness
hai so poor thing
exams are over
but sth seems to be missing
haven really figured out what it is
i tried to write a song but after so many drafts
i cant seem to continue always feel like tearing them up
so i decided to give up
started making presents alr (:
but making presetns alone so not fun boohoo
i wana make presents like last yr!
wana catch up wioth sijia and haiying!
but theyre all busy with studies
i hate to say this but lifes so boring suddenly!
my parents allowed me to learn salsa alr! but no ones learning with me
so i dont know if i shld still go
wana go out alone some day hahaha
some time with myself
hahaha sounds weird
not in the mood to think alr
make me tired
shalla continue crapping with szuan
hahaha BYE (:

sometimes only my pillow understands

2006-10-05T05:49:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA I LOVE MAGGY AND RANDY(:
THEYRE MY FAVOURITE FISSHIES
HEH PICKLES LOOKS CUTE IN THE PINK BALL TOO.

visit this blog and light a candle too!
www.lightamillioncandles.com
my whole familty light candles alr :D
help these kids, its the least we can do

it keeps getting harder

2006-09-18T10:44:00.000-07:00

MUG MIC (:

2006-08-30T09:35:00.000-07:00

hello! found these pooh quotes while making sihui's pooh lyrics book heh, was quite suprised pooh had quotes hahaha, but theyre still rather meaningful (:

“If you live to be 100, I hope I live to be 100 minus 1 day, so I never have to live without you.”

"Promise me you'll never forget me because if I thought you would I'd never leave.”

"You can't stay in your corner of the Forest waiting for others to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes.”

“If there ever comes a day when we can't be together keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever”

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.”

TMR's teachers day! hahaha yay we're gonna dance our line dance!
hahaha i hope i dont forget my steps again, though i think i will!
heh these few days have been stressful, but with friends taht can make you LAUGH YOUR TOES OFF ( heh weilin and her funny phrase), school's becoming fun!
thnks jul for ur beautiful drawing (: so pretty hahaha.
and why u dont wna share your burden with me! make me so hurt hahaha.

hahahah.hmm, went back da zu ytd! i miss my ruan and i miss RUAN! hahah'
lucky i found my ruan, when hsiudfan said my ruan was non existent, i fainted haha
seeing all my juniors grow up, im starting to feel old. hahah
but theyre standard wasnot bad, i was impressed. esp with elise
i never knew she could talk so much! hahah
juniors were asking us to go back for maf, still not sure if i shloud (:
was scandalising chenchi with some jacky and harry guy
hahah and huiyi told us about what chunyang said about me and szuan! rah! haha badmouth hahah. they seem like theyre ahving fun, so its good (:

todays lessons quite slack,
checked my onlineprogress report, so happy!
got alot of four and three! hahaha
then szuan was complaing. BLEH (:
history lesson most crap, we spend whole lesson talking about which part of singapore to bomb
marilyn( ally! ) and i were playing hang man whole lesson
and i came up with a conclusion!
SHORT PEOPLE ARE SMART :D
its proven! mr han was a spy last time, so ehs smart.
interesting life he has, so exciting!

actually i shouldnt be online at all, felt super slack today
came home, ate and slept! there goes two and a half hours of my day
time is precious! i need to learn to sit down, not walk around and study!
ate my choc ally gave me, and guess what!
i found two heart shaped m&m!
one yellow fat one and one thin orange one
hahaha. dont know what to do with them now, theyre still on my table.
i should go study now. ): MUGMIC and find princess her tissue! haha
tmr then write letters for teacher hehheh

sayonara (:

2006-08-28T08:30:00.000-07:00

they say you see the stars in the darkest nights
but what if the sky was too dark
and not a single star was in sight

its you i need tonight
is it too much to ask for?

2006-08-26T09:05:00.000-07:00

MUGMICMUGMICMUGMIC

im happy! baked cookies today and it cheered me up alot!
hehh shall bring to school on monday! (: (: (: (:

a fairytale is not all about finding princes, its about believing in yourself and realising your dreams

2006-08-20T00:41:00.000-07:00

A Tribute to our beloved kitty, CIOCCO (:

she deserves this lil post.
Ciocco also known as chocolate in french has departed this world on 19th August, 0948am
she fell from the seventh floor the night before she left us
negliance on ourpart, the kitchen windowwas left open and she being a curious lil kitty, decided to explore out of the window
i wanted to go play with her, and found that she wasnt in her play area
everyone panicked, we left the house to search downstairs
finally found her amongst some soil area behind the cars in the car park
dirty and all, she looked so weak

we placed her on the floor of the lift and she couldn even move her feet
she kept silent and still, being totally not her self at all.
tried to give her a bath but she wasnt able to move
it really broke our hearts to see her like that
so we gave her a lil cleaning up and put her into her basket
she wouldn touch the food and water
so we decided to leave her alone

it wasnt her first time falling from such high floors
when she was with our cousins, she had jumped from the eighth flloor
they didnt take ehr to the vet cause she was up and alright after a few days rest
this time it wasnt that simple
but our parents insisted she was just suffering from trauma
my sister couldn take it, she locked herself in the room
my mom told her to grow up
and i argued with my mom over that
is there anything immature about crying?
i totally had no mood for anything
i cried bad that night..

the next morning before i left for the talk,
i went to check ciocco
she was lying on the floor and whimpering
i felt so helpless
theere was nothing i could do to help it
i was prepared nto to go for the talk cause i had no mood
and id rather send the cat to the vet
but my dad wasnt free till the afternoon
but ciocco couldnt wwait anylonger,
i can still remember how she had tried to stand
but her paw was not at her control
she was trying so hard, but her body wont let her stand
she was so weak yet so strong
she left us for pureland at 948.

Ciocco was only 2 mths old when she left
maybe shes in someplace better
some where where she has her freedom
where no one would stop her from running wherever she liked
some where where her pain would stop
i hope shes doing happy wherever she is now(:
we will always love her for who she is
and for the joy she has brought to all of us

shes now being buried at the reservoir
hope alls well there for her
i'll go visit her some day
my sis and i were talking about doing cip at the spca
we'll go find out more first (:

i broke down during the talk :S
and on the bus
but it felt much better letting it out sometimes
visited the temple to pray for the lil kitty
and went to walk walk
sorry szuan, i shldn have left u alone
but i really needed to visit the temple
or i would have felt very empty in me
i hope u understand
and thanks for other peaople who have made the rest of the day more bearable (:
this would be a day to remember ..

2006-08-15T09:59:00.000-07:00

Foot Prints In Time
Two young lovers,
Walking on the sand,
Gazing at each other,
Talking hand in hand,
The prints they leave behind them,
Marking memories of the past,
The long beach laid before them,
Hoping love will last,
The ocean captures the footprints,
And erases them from the shore,
Taking with it remembrances,
And leaving them with more,

Many years have passed,
Time flies when you're having fun,
And before you know it innocence fades,
And the teen years are done,
Now she's back on the beach,
Except she is alone,
Watching and waiting,
For the love that hadn't grown,
She walks along the ocean,
Two footprints, not four,
Wondering where the laughter went,
Why he didn't love her more,
Then she stops to sit,
And draws his name in the sand,
A celestial stranger comes along,
And reaches out a hand,
Hesitantly she takes it,
And he listens to her cries,
He's been there before
He's heard many lies,
They decide to walk,
And she follows,
not knowing why,

Love will always be reborn again,
Even if it may die,
She is more cautious than before,
And as she looks back at the footprints,
She s seeing not two, but four,
This time will be different,
Her heart trying to say,
Something magical happened,
She felt it the first day,
Something clicked when they touched,
A jolt from inside,
She knew he'd be there always,
If she had something to confide,

Now here it is twenty years later,
And his love for her,
Is now even greater,
He looks at her like the first time they met,
And despite all the years gone by,
They can never forget,
Those four special footprints,
That are never washed away,
They'll stay forever on her heart,
Until their dying day.

i wanna grow old with you (:

2006-08-11T09:22:00.000-07:00

i spent my whole day at home eating sleeping and reading up!
was having fever cough and flu,w hat a time to get ill
and people thought i pon lor! rah i so guai can :D
hahah thanks szuan for taking down what happened today :)
i woke up with no voice but i got it back after that haha
szuan told me about kincheng's blog, couldn find the post but yep i have to say this to her:
"you'll make a good SL. go make it happen! "
i dont think ive been a very good sl, but ill leave the job to my juniors
theyll do a good job im sure :D

i need to hand in portfolfio and colect ruan
rah shall do that on monday
need to make time to mug alr
its less than 2 mths to our eoys if im not wrong
:S time flies lahh soon everything will zoom past again
and i wont be sec four! okay shall not scare myself alr
hahah

my sister got in nj
CONGRATS
rahh my hands are feeling super weak le
i continue ranting another time (:

heres what i promised (:

looking back, i hope nothing ive done is wrong
cause i took so long to come so far
just being with you makes me feel so right
if its all i could do, id pray for you to be alright:D

they smile, they'd chide
and i know they see us in a different light
but im hoping that if i wished hard enough,
we're gonna be just where we belong (:

if only time could stop there and then
thankyou for believing in me <3

2006-07-31T06:03:00.000-07:00

hahah im here to bring my blog back to life!
tomorrows the day,
our last perf as liuqin and ruan section
i will treasure that last time in school audi
and i'll enjoy every moment on stage in nyco uniform (:
juniors must jiayou too! haha :D :D
and yep the thing everybody is dreading
the passing down ceremony
): ): ):
many hearts will be broken
its hard to take it in your stride
but we can still do our parts for the co as long as we still love nyco!
and for those who are chosen to perform their given duties,
the seniors would have chose you cause they placed their trust in you,
that you would do a even better job than us
so please dont disappoint us (:

its hard to want to leave
simple because we have created so many bonds and walked through so much
all the lil experiences in the lil room we call home
but im still blessed to have all these with me (:
i wouldn be what i am today if not for nyco
what saw me through all the hard days and motivated me to work even harder
was my experince in sec one and the help my snrs have given me.
theres so many people i want to thank:

ms ding: shewas the one who taught me private lessons, introduced me to the co world. she may not know this, but ir eally appreciate the teachings she has given me, i wouldn be what i am if not for her chances shes given me. i rmb the solo i had at tampines cc, it wasnt something big and spectacular, but i was glad to be on stage to be given a chance to shine even if it was just a lil perf. (:

mrs ee: shes really the best conductor ive seen so far(: she doesnt just let us do music, we play music. she brings co another meaning (: her comments during my first hui bao touched me alot too. it may not have meant alot when she said that, but it had a great impact on the lil sec one. (: we all ahve her to thnk for. im sure shes happy to have seen how nyco has grown too (:

benedict: even though i may not be taking lessons from him now, he will always be my lao shi (: i first knew him through peiqian. then i started taking lessons from him, which caused some big woohaa at that time. i rmb ding called peiqian and i to be interrogated, the classroom was dark and not fans and lights were on, rather traumatising for me. but peiqian saved me. that period of time was just chaotic. then thigns started to settle down when i learnt from him, my skills improved alot, and yep more imptly, he taught me what music was all about, that im grateful for. he never fails to impress me with his wide rang of network, always ready to render help to szuan and i. he brought me into the ruan chamber ensemble, an experience that was so beautiful(: all in all, hes always my nice nice teacher!

peiqian: shes one senior i will never forget, because she was the one that introduced to me what co was all about. she influenced my life quite alot when i was close to her during sec 2, i rmb she used to treat all of us to meals and we would talk on the phone almost everyday (: she really taught me alot of stuff, and i have her to thank for who i am today. she helped me throughout my co times and the help all went a long long way. shes someone i wont forget (:

theres still alot more people i need to thank. the list will never end! i will continue after today. i need to study! hahh. yep jiayou strings pple for concert tmr! (:

you give me the reason to smile everyday :)
and no matter what may come
im throwing all my doubts away
i will be here for you, i' ll stay :)

2006-07-21T06:27:00.000-07:00

ive been thinking over stuff the past few days
what ppeople used to tell me, told me, and what my response was to everything they say
had a really meaningful chat with Benedict ytd
was quite suprised at what he told me
he told me its hard to find true friends at work, so hes holding on to his good friends cause they are rare
(: that coming from his mouth was unexpected
then we talked about his work and such, been so long since we talked like this
i miss ruan lessons all of a sudden
and of course my spas ruan tcher who always love bitching while i listen
hmmm whens the next time im gonna see him again! ):

today was an ermmm exciting day? hahaha!
i was LATE ok maybe that was good cause not many pple saw me walk in with my purple indian costume! hahaha a pity we dint get to dance shava i miss the china times! with baona as my dancing partner. the times when we stayed back in school just to choreograph the dance steps and memorising the steps together all in one day! was damn stressful, everyone was crazy! but it turned out to be a great succes in the end. (: i love shava, i wana dance it with everyone again(: hmm today we were the only class in ethnic costumes yay! four six spirit hahah.

aft school went out with szuan to bukit timah plaza to get some stuff (: almost bought the disney water bottle! i want a new bottle ): always wanted a milk bottle hahaha. but no one wants to buy with me so i never got a chance to buy. hmph i want to kill szuan alr, so mean she and jul say they love each other the most then she dont want me alr ): break my heart lah. just give them my best wishes then! szuan was being spas she wnated to buy barney stuff, heh and i wanted the water bot! booo no money. ):

went to ikea with feeb after her math lessons. RAH
we dint know where to take bus so i called szuan haha
then she said ny side then i heard as hci side!
so yeahh we ended up at woodlands there!
:S oops had to take cab back, so waste money
hahaha waste time tooo
then feeb and i got so frightened that he would bring us to some ulu place and erps hahaha
spas lah. but we still managed to reach there in time to shop!
zoomed around in ikea and got all our materials reall quickly
we were amazed at our speed lah hahaha
had some time before her erhem pick her
so we went to eat hotdogs (:

we left the place at about five twenty
so proud of the stuff i bought! (:
seeing all the cute stuff made me smile
hope it will make other people smile too(:
went to anchor point to get some other stuff
and i got my meiji chocs! joy :D
went into the bloomington shop, it was damn cute!
saw this fortune cookie and smiley thingy
suposed to ask a question , shake the thingy
and at thebottom, an ansewer will appear
soo cute! haha im gonna go abck there to get it for sure(:

oh yea we saw a hello kitty car on the road and we said it was so szuan:P
heh ok that was random haha
szuan helping me buy my disney princess puzzle! (: (: thnks lover
ill pay you! hahaha aft i get my money enxt week, very broke alr
its jasmine and alladin on the puzzle! i like!!! hahaha

hmm iwent home with peiyi today (:
lucky i went to find them at queensway or iw ouldn be here now typing this entry cuse i would have been stranded in some ulu part of singapore that no one knows! hahaha
really felt lost, quite giddy too like sudd dont know what i shld do. called szuan and went to find them (:

i think thats about all for today! still got lots to do for tmr! (:
tmr 's the big day!
eeryone hava a good rest and sleep early!
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee esplanade here we come!

make day after today even more spectacular (:

2006-07-20T07:52:00.000-07:00

): today was the last time we were gonna have practice in m401
the room where we shared so much memories
4 yrs of ruaning
having fun with seniors
slogging out guts out for concerts
getting really frsutrated and stressed during syf
countless practice with juniors
spastic moments in that lil room
all these pass by like a dream
knew this day would come, was dreading it actually
but nows not the time to cry yet (:
save the tears for the last!
im quite sure i will breakdown on 22nd ):
it was like how we cried our hearts out on foa last yr
that was the most painful time of the yr, but a very memorable one
that bond we all created, its sth words cannot explain (:
i hope everythings not going to end just yet
because i want all theese good things to last forever and ever!
sudd everythings gonna end like it never happened ):
feeling quite lost now
cant imagine not going back to m401 for practs anymore..
i guess its time to say goodbye ...

2006-07-15T21:18:00.000-07:00

"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."

hahah just being random (:

2006-07-13T05:48:00.000-07:00

choosing not to say anything doesnt mean you feel nothing.

you're brave and i'm weak.

2006-07-09T06:41:00.000-07:00

"All children are artists. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up."- - - Pablo Picasso

2006-07-07T06:12:00.000-07:00

ooops i think i screwed my previous post with the quote
eng translation is something like theres no need to search for happiness, it is about discovering (: i read that from a chi compre we did a few days ago, thought it was rather meaningful
hahaha.
szuan insists a blog today!
yeahh i shall blog since today is such a HAPPY and SPASTIC day
humph szuan wants me to blog first so she can copy me! RAH
hahahah ok joking

today we ended school super early
we were released at 12 plus
then our nice monitress kelly and wenrui told us to go canteen
(: we had chocolate cake!
to celebrate the success of funfair and whatever we have been through as a class
it was a nice feeling (: (:
then buay kee was helping us all wish good luck for math test
hahaha i really needed that!
i screwed the quiz today but its okay lah!
shall mug really hard for math test
i want that 40 marks! hahaha

another happy thing!
my sister and i made sijia this cheer up card!
hahahaha it looks so spastic
but i almost wanted to keep it for my own
so cute (:
hehhh yay she say i draw nicely!
hahah im glad it made u smile robot
stay that way kay!

we left school to meet our dear spastic sl xiquan for our math tuition
we met at kfc for lunch
and it was spastic!
i tried to drink my drink
then the stupid thing spilled on my white skirt!
like RAHRAH
hahaha then szuan suck my water bottle until drip on her also
crap lah she.
why no one believe i want to join canoeing!!!
im so hurt!
even my lover dont give me encouragement
so sad ): ):
okay loh i prove to all of you i can do it!
haahah

we wanted to go to the library
but thought they were too many people there
so we walked to ge there to study
ghahaha we sat on the floor of the room we used to pract in for co
brought back so much memories (: (:
turned on the radiao which was all crap music lah
so happy! managed to finish 8 math qns!
some i do myself one yay
hahahah. but i think i learnt wuite alot
haha then we all got tired
so we went to the provision shop to get some snacks
our sl bought us danish cookies
and i saw the bubbles thingy!
so szuan and i bought them
hehhh sat around the play ground and chatted for quite some time
very interesting chat (: heh
co politics and quarell can be really silly and childish sometimes
lover, must rmb our ensemble dream kay ! (:

szuan and i started blowing our bubbles!
then xiquan joined us
the lil kids at the playground very vute lah!
all so small
then they saw our bubbles and they got so hyper!
damn funny lah, couldn stop laughing
hahah kids are kids so innoncent!
its been sooo long since i had such simple joy (:

the peaceful bubble popping machine thing turned into a war
three biggies against five lil kids!
hahah they bully us first can
they started throwing leaves at us like pouring lil leaves on our hair
then got this lil girl always aim me de
hahaha so eveil!
then we were all chasing each other at the playgrnd
so SPASTIC
like so old!!! against the smallies
then the maid at the side keep laughing at us
hahaha
xq, szuan and i tried hiding at the top of the ship thingy
but they still ran up and caught us!
like hide and seekk
really excercise alot lah today(:
i wana be as young as them too!
so trouble free
growing up is hard ..

so we ended up saving the day
did some work but hmmm..
left quite alot too
hahaha i feel so slack today!
nvm.. hahah then xq and junyi send us to the mrt
junyi told us to go pract as an when we can
cause have to prepare for nac comp (:
sigh benedict is no longer there!
like oh man. ruans like only sijia and me now
wonderful!
hahaha. and i think robot like very busy now
talking about her shes very mean!
called my sister to talk just now and she dont want to call me
ok lor sijia u good
hahahahah and im not dao! ):
okok joking lah, sijia is stillmy best ruan buddy

came home and SLACEKD
shall piah like mad tmr
but need to settle stuff today later
shall go off now! byebye

oh yes before iforget!
its szuan and i's wedding on 28th july!
at the esplanade dinner starts at 730
guest performers include peiyan, limqing, sheila, szemin, andy, andrea and maureen!
please do come and give us your blessings!
see you there! hahah

i love everything in my life, including you (:

2006-07-05T07:47:00.000-07:00

快乐不是寻找而是发现。（：

2006-07-02T22:21:00.001-07:00

hello everybody!
hahah so many so many events happened this past few days
funfair on the 1st july, nyco concert on 2nd july!
hahah i shall start on them one by one. (:

the funfair was FUN FUN FUN
hahaha the day before i rmb i couldn sleep cause i was so excited lah
went around pasting stickers on pple
then we were mending to stalls in spastic polka dot apron thingy
then no one else wanted to wear it except my friend and i
so mean lahh. hahaha
no time to slack lahh, while everyone else had fun there playing games and eating
we were all dying at the stall
after that szuan and i went to walk around cos we were starting to feel abit giddy le
feeb was sick , szuan stayed in the pub, hong was busy
then no one wanted to play the haunted house with me
rahh always like that ): so sad
never mind i got a windmill for myself and szuan
heh and kaiyi helped my play that golf thingy then she gave szuan and i the fishy we wanted (:
i guess our sales was rahter good, but everyone was dead tired aft that
hahaha. (: (:

yay next up is nyco concert!
reached sch at 8 to pract tanbo song
(: we off the lights and prac so we cuold get into the yu mood.
hahah it helped lah
then we had lunch and rushed off to SCH
da zu is always full of nonsense
my juniors are spastic!
they crap SO much
hahah esp kincheng
have to keep reminding her shes still attached and not to forget she still has her dar hubert
damn funny lah.

i brought cam but dint even have time and chance to take
i was too flustered
i fell asleep on my ruan while i was backstage
and my hands were cramping while playing tajike
aft rehearsal i really thought tajike was so screwedd
we were all so worried lah
then while eating at the balcony
hazel and i saw pple coming in alr
then she was complainin why they wana come so early
just make us frightened
then she dint finish her food tooo
hahah hazel is spastic too!
my fellow score sharer
shes keeps making me laugh.

backstage before we went up,
we were doing mass breathing
like to make ourselves less nervous
but i dont think it was working!
haha then it was time!
the third bell rang
rahhh! we came out
then i kept feeling like laughing dont know why also
hazel and i were talking and we said we hope not to see anyone we know in the first few rows
sauy lah i turned my head and i saw smone spastic waving at me!
hahah its our spastic sl xiquan! i was like shocked lah.
saw a few other random pple also then dint dare look alr
hahaha.

the da zu pieces were good i guess
the feelingwas good at least thats what i felt! (:
i was so glad my daruan dint screw can
hahaha was sitting on the outside
then got pple msg me aft that say i look small!
rahhh fine lor.
humph.. hahaha
i was so worried i will drop my dauruan lah
then kept worrying about tripping on my own skirt cos it always happens to me
hahaha.
ruan pple kepty talking and laughing can
i bet we were the noisiest on stage hahaa

then soon it was interval
it was jsut madness!
hahaha i had like five missed calls
then pple just vooom in front of you and pass u things
hahaha so overwhelming!
but i have to give thanks to alot of pple.

those who gave me flowers (:
ali
guoying
brittany
sijia
haiying
xuerong and huifen
linghuan and beiyu
kelly
xiaoda
koymin and dennis
zhengyou
henry
ewe cow and jiebin
justin
hazel

special thanks to other pple! (:
tianwei- smiley cookie
justin- chocolates
chenchi- letter
huiyi- letter and packet of sweets
kincheng- letter
henry- eeyore
hazel- the first trphy in my whole life, best friend trophy
yuting- bunny dolly
xiquan- pouch and a spastic big pin
zhengyou- sunflower book
sihui, chokwan- chocolates for whole section
ewe, jiebin- letter
joan- gummy worms
little boy - card
(: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: (: ( :

heh thsnk for all the nice lil presents, they made my day!

the second half of the concert wasnt as nerve wrecking
except for yu and tajike
i was soo relived aft tajike lah!
though it wasnt our best
but we did well as a section!
so no more tears cos we did our best! (:
oh im so happy heh
cos alot of pple said our tanbo is very strong (;
yippee

the last song was huanghe
i was so happy but i knew it was gna be the end soon
sighh when we went on stage i was just ready to enjoy every single moment of the stage
everyone was playing and giving their best to their audiences
(: was loving it lah
then chenchi spoiled my mood hahaha!
cos she started talking about hw
then we were all like huh! hahaha
its our last song and she had to remidn us about hw
rahhh. but it was all fun and hard work together
(: that monment on stage was what we were all working hard for for the past few months
the tears , the worries, the frowns and wrinkles
heh they all paid off!

i was telling smone i dint want the day to end
bacuse the moment i wake up tmr
everything will seem like it never happened
it was all like a beautiful dream
they joy and laughters we shared backstage
they spastic times in m401 and jiucy lil gossips
the horible lil squabbles and blahblahblah the list can go on
heh we bobbed well on stage! cos everyone bounced
hahaha. ok so random heheh
sighh itsv ver but i geuss like the mc said our spirit lives on
and all these memories, i will keep them close to me too! (:

i can talk about another persons problem like i knew solutions to them
but i cant seem to find a way to my own..

2006-07-02T22:21:00.000-07:00

2006-06-27T08:23:00.000-07:00

give a strange a smile today, it may be the only smile he recieves that day (:

2006-06-20T05:06:00.000-07:00

i guess ive always took things for granted
today i met up with sijia cause she needed to pass me nats skirt and some scores
she said i look damn dead, i guess i wasnt feeling in a good mood and im haveing ulcers so dont realy feel like talking, even smiling hurts now
she passed me the stuff in a bag
chatted awhile then she had to alight
after i left the bus, i decided to check for the things in the bag
and i realised she rmb the booklet, bought me meiji strawbeery chocs!
hahaha she made me smile on the streets!
lucky no one saw me smiling like a retard.
thanks robot (: (: you brightened up my day

many other thigns happened
too much to say (:
some ): some (:
took time off to reflect
sorted stuff out
but im still findin my way
so if i zone out in front of you
im just thinkig of other stuff
been very tired recently
putting on that face when i know it just wasnt how i felt
is it me or just them ?
i dont want to know anymore

i hate myself for complaining. RAH
im an insensitve, uncaring, selffhish person
not a worthy friend at all.
smone told me its hard to find a friend that can walk with you forever
if you do, then good for you
i will just treasure whatver i have(:

i realied i dont know you at all
why nust things become like this :(
because of you,
i dread things i used to love

2006-06-06T08:42:00.000-07:00

hahah todays a MAD day!
hahahah dont know why keep laughing during pract
only told my juniors to bounce then they keep laughing!
haha crazy lah, then cherie keep making ee oo ee oo noises
hazel kept making me laugh for nothing lah
kincheng said sth and we heard it as oliver hair
and now hazel nat and me are crazy over our lin an phrase!
competing who can go faster
yay nat! i love my bo pian hehehe (:BLEH

heh my juniors made my day today!
i was feeling quite down before that, but who cares when youve got happpy things to think about! haha
hmm ok i owe nat and jul letter. oops hahaha jul dont lock me in the room again :S and my lover owes me a letter! humph

tmr have to wake up super early lah
rahhhhreeeehhroooo!
have to interview a peranakan guy! heh
i hope hes a nice guy (:
meeting cow at 8 tmr! ill be gonged again haha
heh nvm lah, since marilyn not in sing, we do what we can first!
ohhh juniors are having bsp camp now, haha good luck to them.
hahaha

i talked to huifen today online
talked about passion and what we wanted to be when we're older
she wants to be an economist, and me, a pyschologist!
my mama even went to find out about it for me
im kinda sure i want that alr, can help all those lil kids
so all those stressed depressed pple can look for me in the future!
hahahah theres so many pro pple out there
huifen says she thinks i will study chi music in uni in the future
and come back as a musician
hmm, thats what i hope, but its just a lil lil dream
there are so many goood pple out there
ill just be a tiny prawn in a huge ocean!
yeah ill be happy being ordinary (:

ive been seeing my pretty pink sky recently!
it makes me happy the whole day
lifes such a wonder! (:(:(:(:(:(:

2006-06-02T07:39:00.000-07:00

a picture says a thousand words, doesnt it? (:

my summary for term2!
we had lots of joy, fun, not forgetting the tears shared..

its okay, we will come thru it all together!
i really appreciate the support friends and family have given (:

THANKYOU and I LOVE YOU!and JIAYOU tanbo and all those who are muggin! (:

not another lie
reallu
ive had enough..

2006-06-01T18:51:00.000-07:00

It looks like your romantic fantasy is the Castle in the Sky

What's Your Romantic Fantasy?
Brought to you by Tickle

2006-05-27T08:18:00.000-07:00

The story by Daniel Cheong age 13 goes:

Biscuits. You do no need to imagine them because they are already on the kitchen table as you walk in. A dead hamster. You do not need to smell it because it is already beside the old rusted, metal dustbin, staring at you with its blank eyes as you hold your breathe in disgust. And buttons, or rather a button. You do not need to feel it because it sits on your white Goldlion shirt, itching you out.

You must be thinking why I am saying all these rubbish to you. But hey don’t you go to and fro from work and end up at the end of the day, staring blankly at these three items?
The whole point is that you are blinded from the real meaning of life.

The biscuit was meant to feed you, the button to clothe you, and the hamster, to bring you joy. Now that the biscuit is shattered, the hamster dead, and the button broken, they have lost their purpose. But have you? Your purpose is to feed people, clothe people and bring them joy, just like the biscuit, hamster and the button.

The biscuit, hamster and button have failed, but hopefully you will not. Providing, loving and bringing joy to others may bring more joy to you than you can imagine.

i like this story! (:

2006-05-20T06:11:00.000-07:00

STRESS

BUT

im not gonna run away from things alr
LETS FACE THE MUSIC
yes music.
today was a bad-hide-your-face day!
only two ruans, szuan and me
then moses conducted pract
dont wana talk about it :S
we just suck lah
but its okay!
im gonna make sure ill play every single note audibly and no more complains and laughter!
JIAYOU SZUAN JIAYOU MIC
MIC YOU CAN DO IT (:

i failed maths and history was practically on the verge of failing
im on the brink of collapsing too
HAHA to all that i said my last words to
dont worry! i wont throw my life away like that!
hahahaha.

after going through so much
esp this year, i guess ive seen enough and had enough
like sharon said, smile even if theres then things to frown about and one to smile (:

im not stressed about my shit results
but more of worried on what my next step should be
but ive been too reliant on pple
this time, im gonnna learn to do things by myself
and i HAVE and MUST do well
its the last lap alr
PIAH all the way!

things to accomplish:
(short term)
1. pract all the songs
2.call uncle simon
3. call dental
4. LA portfolio and essay
5. history essay
6. BIO task or SIA
7. PIAH SIAS( WE ARE SO DEAD)
8. visit the musuem and the oral history place

(long term)
1. be able to play music
2. improve my ruan
3. get into HCJC
4. PASS WITH FLYING COLOURS FOR MATHS
5. do well for history!
6. NYCO CONERT (:
7. GE CONCERT (:
8. to stay (: (: EACH DAY!

theres still some more but thats all i can think of
my brain is not exactly active now

it was when i heard your name,
i started thinking,
where'd you go
i miss you so ..

2006-05-13T06:37:00.000-07:00

today has been interesting.
i woke up with the shock of my life
because being such a failure as sl,
i forgot to tell some of my juniors abt the cancelling of pract!
and its not the first time.
ARGH

not only that, i left the house
on my way to going tpy cc for ge practs
i walked over to the bus stop sat down and sth told me i was on the wrong side
so i called my mum, and confirmed i was on the wrong side.
so i had to walk all the walk back to the opp bustop.

finally reached j8 to change bus, and i realised ez link no money
so i went to top up my card
insertedd the card and put in money
then here comes the fun part
the machine dint want to give me my card
it read OUT OF SERVICE
i was like congrats to me!
then i called the guy t help me
and the operator scolded me
cause he said my card was spoilt
a guy walked past me and asked if i was the one on 410,
which was totally random.

met andrea and szuan
and we had lunch at long johns
when we were about to leave,
it started raining!
had no choice but to flag a taxi
umbrela was useless, cause we got very wet!

ge pract was madness as well
i dont like qiu yun i totally smiled thru the whole song
but the other songs are okay
then the andy guy so mean!
he was the one that said oh my god when he knew szuan and me were sec four
bahhhhhh then today he was " you all p6 right" rahhh! meanie
hahahha. but he does play the dizi well (:

damn stressed lah, junyi said tanbo standard dropped
duh! all the pro pple just left.
all thats left are the young young kids
nvm we can do it! heh. i will make sure i can play every song by next pract
so theres GECO NYCO and STUDIES
and pracs are on wed 7 -10 , thurs 3-6, fri 3-6 and 7-10 and sat 9-12 and 2- dont know wat time
this is total mad ness!
i hope ill survive!
theres still tanbo songs and dazu songs and lesson songs and liuqin and ruan song
BAH save me!
to think i wanted to learn san xian ):
i can barely pass my tests
with all these, i really dont know how to cope..

PRAY FOR ME

2006-04-30T08:40:00.000-07:00

because of you
my heads spinning
because of you
i have this feeling
because of you
im falling..

iloveyou(:

2006-04-23T07:40:00.000-07:00

it cant be
it never will be
but i cant deny the way it feels
): ): ):

its the craziest dream ive had
but heres the furthest i'll bring it to
it will end here.

2006-04-22T00:35:00.000-07:00

once upon a time
there lived a girl who loved climbing trees
she climbed trees so often, it was part of her.

one day she climbed a tree
and a lil blue bird passed her by
she was distracted by the melodious chirping
and lost her footing

she fell from the tree
and broke her leg

but the story doesnt end here
she lives on,
but with fear from falling again
with fear of doing the very thing she once loved
one wrong step was all it took.

then again,
would she have been happier without climbing trees?

thanks for being there (:
it was those simple words that kept me going.
the day may just be horrible and cruel,
but i know youre always there for me.

this may seem like a futile attempt but
i hope this would never happen to a second person
im so not in the mood for talking about what happened
but i dont like crying in front of pple ):
im sorry if i shocked those pple whom i was serving food to
i was weak, and couldn keep it in me.

its another sad post
i promise to blog about happy things next time round!

2006-04-12T05:42:00.000-07:00

i officially have 6 ulcers!
its fun being silent sometimes
people dont expect so much of you
i dont have to worry about how to reply sbody
or be scared i would offend sbody with my words
let me stay this way for just ahwile.
but not too long before smone forgets my existence (:

i want to get well!

2006-04-06T07:23:00.000-07:00

these few wweeks have been very very hectic but i guess im still surviving (:
today was a happy day!
went to run with phoebe and danhong after co pract felt so satisfied lah
5 raounds the sch hahaha (:
pract today was the best iveever had since we started
dont know whther everyone felt that way but its what i thought it was
everyone seemed for once to know what they were doing
and every note that came out was with a meaning
it may not sound that perfect yet but we can do it im sure!
ok damn tired cannot continue alr. just tblogging to make sure my blog stays alive ! haha

2006-03-28T05:39:00.000-08:00

LUNCHTIME CONCERT!
(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
i guess this basically sums up my feelings heh
it was the last time liuqin and ruan were going to play mayilah,
lucky thing we did fairly well! hahah
i know szuans going to blog alot about it so u all wana know more go her blog see!
NYCO rocks (:

HAHA. today was such an eventful day
after luchtime concert, we went back to sch then sharon, szuan and me went KAP
hahaha it has been such a long long time since ive LAUGHED so much.
sharon said whatever as whatapple
szuan kept spitting saliva on me!
hahahah i have very SPASTIC friends but they brighten up my day(:
we laugh laugh laugh so loud
i think the pple around us were damn iritated :P
yay so excting im so excited. hahahah
oops no link but ill explain why when the time comes.

i read my horoscope forgot when but it said something like changes in my life may not neccessarily be a bad thing.
i haev to learn to accept them as they come along and get on with life, i guess it applies, ill work hard to accept the changes.
since i cant change things, ill play with whatever comes my way and make the best out of it!

after leaving KAP, i took 157 to macritchie
STUPID me went to take the wrong bus.
i think i was too tired to have bothered thinking
so i was on the bus, totally zoning out
then i realised the roads dont seem at all familiar
then i was like SHITSHITSHIT.
SMSED MY SISTER
but she dint know whether the bus was correct!
so i got down beacuse my gut feeling told me so
apparently i had to walk back THREE busstops
like CONGRATS TO ME
i was so tired i wished i could have flown back
and there was thunder
so scary and i had no idea how far i was from home.

i saw a guy infront of me and it reminded me of the person i had shared an umbrella with me
then i thought..
what if it had rained?
would there be a kind soul to offer me an umbrella
would i run for shelter and wait for the rain to finish pouring
after thinking , i decided not to depend on anyone else
i wanted to walk faster to avoid being caught in the rain
but so what is i was in the rain, so what if i managed to avoid getting wet and drenched in the rain, it made no difference.

i want to live life happy everyday
its easier said than done

2006-03-23T06:17:00.000-08:00

i cried today
you just didnt see me do it..

2006-03-10T18:20:00.000-08:00

title: unknown unto YOU
by: ME

As i lay and put myself to sleep
i think of how you came
and went and touched me
like a whisper from the wind

In my subconscious dreams
i cry my tears dry
though you'll never understand why
hugging my pillow, you were there
just you and me
but i know,

*chorus:
that was a lie i live with everyday
since the day you walked away
i see the smile in my face
your happiness becomes my pain
where were you when i needed you?
i know, its gone and never will come back
like a whisper from the wind*

i grow and learn from experience
helpless, but i put on a smile
i want you to know i'll live life happy
while you go on, as happy as a child
now just you and her
but i know,

*chorus*

now i appreciate the beauty of love
reminiscence, sweet
happiness, a lie

with the last touch of the whisper from the wind
i will, rest
in peace.

dated: the day you walked away(:

2006-03-05T05:04:00.000-08:00

hahah i had a really weird dream ytd
but its quite interesting
haha its about titantic
the ending was a bit unlike the actual movie though

instead of jack dying and rose living on
rose almost froze in the icy water whereas jack was trying to save her
she had this really bad injury on her chest area, quite disgusting :S
anyway she was saved by jack in the end
then we were living their life happily
i remember the last scene of them was they and their grp of kids going into the car, planning to go for an outing hahah

i was thinking about this in my dream
if jack hadn died in the movie, would their love be so everlasting and strong
even if they lived, would they be happy?

love isnt about being with the person you love
but taking in comfort that no matter where the person you love may be,
you wish he or she would be living life happy.

even if the person giving him or her the joy wasnt you
the knowledge that he or she is safe in someone else's hands comforts you
and you are happy (:

hahaha. that is what the dream taught me
heh. anyway today i went szuans hse early in the morning to swim
her bro and her are violent
and her hse is scary her table almost murdered me
i was looking at the pop up book and the table behind fell on me!
bahhh pain hahaha

then we went to peggys nice condo to learn line dancing
so far okay haha
her condo is prettypretty pretty!
we were saying we shld all go there to swim everyweek
beehoon was ncie too
discussed bout the parade during prom
its going t be fun ! (:
and we promised that we will all not sleep at night to talk!
heh

after dance, szuan and me walked t bus stop oh ya, just now at the busstop when we came
there was this insance les partners
they were dancing tango in the middle of the road the cars were like all horning at them
then after that they still went to hug the bulletin board
madness
ive been wondering why pple turn les, then i went on to think about why gays become gays too

haahaha szuan and me went down to her pool side to study
talked bout some stuff (:
looked at the kids playing by the pool side reminded me of the past
how cousins and friends used to play in the pool
and jumped in the pool with ny uniform hiding in the jacuzzi corner of my pool hoping the guard wouldn see us heh.. playing ball next to the pool, doing crazy stuff i dont think id have a chance to do again.
bahhh i wana go back..

i shall put my nice composition of lyrics here if i have the time (:

read thru all my old letters from friends
feels good looking back at teh happy and sad moments we all shared together
brings back so much wonderful memories
i wanna keep all this with me,

forever

2006-03-04T06:31:00.000-08:00

I LOVE SZUAN!

hahaha she made me say this! hahahah

szuan1

2006-03-01T15:00:00.000-08:00

i'm dying
from practising the dance so much
.....................................................

szuan

2006-02-20T03:44:00.000-08:00

a song me and szu an fell in love with:

Purest of Pain
by Son of Four

I'm sorry I didnt mean to call
But I couldn't find it
I guess I was weak and I couldnt even hide it
and so i surrender just to hear your voice

I know how many times I said i'm gonna
live without you
and maybe someone else is standing
there beside you
but there's something baby
that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like
I'm dying
I have to see you
It's all i'm asking

** chorus
Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that i breathe
carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my days are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain

i wish i could tell you
i'm feeling better everyday
that it didn't hurt me
when you walked away
but to tell you the truth
i can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like
i'm dying
i have to see you its all that i'm asking

2006-02-17T07:46:00.000-08:00

i want to run away
away to a place where no one would find me
where happiness and good feelings are the only feelings we have
where misery and sadness never exists
where people behave like they are
where deception never shows itself
where everyone sees the beauty in another person
where pure and simple love lives on
where everything is like what we want
where we have everything we love with us

i was just being stupid
i shouldnt be feeling like this
it was along just me

ive never felt like this before
is this the end

someone please take me away
i want to escape from all this nonsense
from this horrible place where feelings get hurt

i want to go to the beach
and scream from inside me
i hope the waves at sea take me away
to a place and never bring me back

i hate this place.
im begging you to take me away
please..

i need to SCREAM!!

2006-02-16T08:15:00.000-08:00

boo my nose is BLOCKED!
bahhh never mind im going t sleep soon..

today was another normal day at school
brought diary t copy lyrics
was singing songs throughout whole lunch
hahah it was very fun
highlighting all the lines that we liked the most
hahah spastic but fun (:

then there was da zu today
co was suprisingly quiet
i hope everyone keeps up the hard work like today!
arrange ment of ruan is settled too, finally..
lin laoshi didnt come today
so maureen conducted (:
her speech was good

concert is nearing,
that also means that seniors are about to leave
listened to huanghe and sharon told us it was going t be our last song of the concert other than the encore.
all e memories we had in nyco with prev batch of seniors and juniors ..
i hope these never fade away
as for our upcoming concert
i hope we'll create beautiful memories which will last us a lifetime (:

mylove.

seeing you makes me scared.
i know i shouldnt be feeling this way,
but you make me afraid of you.
i cannot hide from you,
but i really wish never t see you again..

2006-02-08T06:49:00.000-08:00

it hurts..

2006-02-06T07:31:00.000-08:00

"Goodbye To You"

Of all the things I've believed in

I just want to get it over withTears form behind my eyes

But I do not cry

Counting the days that pass me by I've been searching deep down in my soul

Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old

It feels like I'm starting all over againThe last three years were just pretend

And I said,

[Chorus:]

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything that I knew

You were the one I lovedThe one thing that I tried to hold on to

The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes

And it seems that I can't live a day without you

Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away

To a place where I am blinded by the light

But it's not right

[Chorus:]

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time

I want what's yours and I want what's mine

I want you

But I'm not giving in this time

i meant it when i said i needed you..

2006-01-31T00:29:00.000-08:00

'Don't you worry.Sometimes you've just got to let it ride.The world is changin' right before our eyes. Now I've found youthere're no more emptiness inside... if we're hungry, love will keep us alive."

thanks to all my friends who made my day (:
you guys never fail to make me smile.

even if it was a little hello or hi
it really brightens my day to see you all
THANK YOU

2006-01-25T07:20:00.000-08:00

feeling rather down now
something happened, its my fault. sorry phoebe :(
listening to modern dance's cd, making me feel even more depressed
but we learnt that its really okay to cry if we need to
its not good to hold the tears back.
its okay to cry as long as we know it makes us stronger after that.

saw some stuff that made me unhappy today
shan't elaborate what.
but i get reminded of everything whenever i see her.
dont like that happening but i cant help it
arr why do i alwaysblog about sad stuff.
was quite hurt too, but i think its just me being over senstive

theres no point worrying if i know there wont be a solution
so i will try to remain HAPPY (:

but i cant seem to be able to move on
because i always get caught in the past
i need a push forward..

2006-01-20T08:03:00.000-08:00

im dozing off at the computer so i decided to blog to wake myself up a lil.
trying to piah my bio raft SIA essay, i hate it. i want my sleep
there's so many other homework and theyre like due at a bad timing
the history test is on MON, ive got a phobia of history alr
i always fail my tests, seeing the paper is traumatising.
i mean it

and everyone has left
im all ALONE online now
okay im supposed to be concentrating on my compo
but i have no inspiration and mood

STRESS
over cca and seeing ding
over how lousy i play the ruan
over piles of homework teachers throw at us indiscriminantly
over stuff pple consider trivial but i consider major problems
over people and what they do
over what stupid mistakes i always make but never seem to learn

over EVERYTHING

i need to scream

RAHHHRAHRAHRAHRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRR
RRRRRRRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2006-01-16T21:11:00.000-08:00

HELLO (:
im in school now
heh i shall make my blog alive again!
szu an is fabulous! :D
wahahahahahah
SPASTIC GIRL
that waa BIG LIE
hahaha.
so bored we're talking about SIA
boring..

hahah that's all for now!
buh bye!

BACK

2005-12-06T07:03:00.001-08:00

HOME SWEET HOME! :)

six weeks in china
my life has changed in some way or another
met really good friends there
i'll miss them alot
thinking we wont be able to see them again, ahhh that feeling is horrible

but those special friendships we shared in china will be remembered
my buddy feifei esp
and the pple who left an deep impression on me :)
ive changed my opinions about pple
thought alot abt certain stuff
like the fortune teller said some stuff cannot be forced
so im going to concentrate on living life happy from now on!

:) heh i had a major makeover in china
cut my hair and made new specs
so many pple said i looked like han guo ren
haha esp me and sandy
wonder how im going for cca like that

im going to miss the times i spent with my friends
strangers when we first met, but now we talk about everything under the stars!
heh the times when we braved the cold together
sitting on the school field late at night , eating llollipops and talkin about our troubles
watch the stars move by, screaming around like mad girls
crapping around in the hostel
singing in the bus
blasting jay and jj's music( i can memorize the lyrics alr!)
having silly fights with my friends
scolding jul spastic, getting pissed at her sometimes
shes bullies me all the time!
spastic audrey calling me mimi
jasmin suaning me
jasMINE tokin abt lame stuff with me
kelly, sharing vit c with me
lynn, for being so caring,
and other pple who really made this trip memorable.:)
a big THANK YOU to all of you
shanghai/ningbo 2005 rocks!

im not sure if things are going to change in school
but we're all back to reality
i can feel the stress alr..
2 weeks for a mths hw.
ruan problems.. i still haven settled the prob
sigh.

gahh. im always sweatin
from -3 degrees to a sudden 27
im going to take a long time to get used to the weather here
and many other things
china pple are nice :)
im going to miss them lots..

willl cont blogging another day
theres just too much :)

love ends, but memories live on..

2005-12-06T07:03:00.000-08:00

HOME SWEET HOME!

six weeks in china
my life has changed in some way or another
met really good friends there
i'll miss them alot
thinking we wont be able to see them again, ahhh that feeling is horrible

but those special friendships we shared in china will be remembered
my buddy feifei esp
and the pple who left an deep impression on me :)
ive changed my opinions about pple
thought alot abt certain stuff
like the fortune teller said some stuff cannot be forced
so im going to concentrate on living life happy from now on!

:) heh i had a major makeover in china
cut my hair and made new specs
so many pple said i looked like han guo ren
hahaha esp me and sandy

im going to miss the times i spent with my friends
strangers when we first met, but now we're

2005-10-27T01:27:00.000-07:00

yay im in shanghai now! hahahhaa. so fun! theres too much to say. but i miss everyone back in singapore! hahaha will be back soon. :) must miss me k! byes

2005-10-22T05:37:00.000-07:00

thanks everyone for making my bdae such a memorable one! :)
words cannot express the gratitude towards all of you.
just as long as u rmb my bdae, im happy :)

im leaving for china on tues! excited yet dreadin to leave. i'll miss everything and everyone here. nvm i'll bring the black book so i can peep at the book and i wont feel that bad. :( i hope..

im freaked out by wad happened ytd. its not convenient to say it here. i shall not think bout what else had happened. id rather not know. its making me really confused.. i just bought a horoscope book. i told myself not to believe in such stuff, but its too true. or its probably just the insecurity i have in me.. whatever.

should i just let you go?

2005-10-07T23:53:00.000-07:00

i cant wait for my bdae!
heh.. my sister had such a fun bdae hahah
im in holiday mood alr
though last papers on tues.
sorta prepared to fail.
dont feel anxious at all
just feeling very glad exams are soon over
:)

i cant wait for PORGY dates
i made gifts ytd
instead of studying.
hahah.. oh no and ended up playing games ytd night
okay at least i managed to study one chapt with sihui ytd.
six more to go in two days!
haha i know i can do it!

why cant i copy the lyrics here!
arr i give up.
heard that song again
it made me cry..
cos it reminded me of you